Hibiya Station to Meguro Station; 13 minutes of rumbles

Have the goodness to not dragging me down and plunge into abysmal depths.. 

Because they did.

I swear not to let you feel the abyss.

And I have never been so true on a pseudo thinking.

Guessing the apparent.

Cleo is not my best friend

How could I never write about Cleo? She’s the freaking Dale for the Chip, irregular human being which is my sister by the fate. She hated me back in our high school days, because I was too cheerful and warm... 😊🥺 

Ok, so back in 2010, I offered her to apply an exchange program to wherever-you-wanna-go, which brought me to staying over at her house to fill out our applications. And we have so many things in common. 😭Like, maaan who listened to Soulvibe back in 2009? 

Bijjjj, Tokyo-Hannover laaah what the hell. It’s been 6 years and I miss you so much. I’ll see you as soon as SEMESTA MENDUKUNG. 

His Ordain, I wasn’t blessed

Before you, it wasn’t good either.

Crippled soul shall be taken care about.

Am far from the perfection, I just want to complete.

Take your time, it’s His ordain. 

My existence is none of your blessings.

She is. At least you think so.

You’ve tried, she cares.

Time will tell.

Standing on my own feet as you said.

Relax, I am my own sanctuary.

Except, I let me drown to the hole I made for you.

moonlight but you

One night under the sky.

The moon the stars were pretty you kept on looking at them.

Me.

I couldn’t let the eyes seen other than you. 

Joy Crookes and her lyrics.

“Don’t let me down.. Please, don’t let me down.”

You are the prettiest, to me.

Selang Waktu

April 2015,
Fondasi ini kubangun dengan sendiriku..
Tak pernah tahu kapan kudapatkan atap tuk jadikannya rumah.
Lalu kau hadir seolah membawa atap.
Seolah menawarkan jadi yang teduh.

Agustus 2015,
Kau tinggal tapi tak tetap.
Kau bawa atap tapi tak terpasang.
Kau, asa yang tak pernah bisa kucapai.
Empat bulan berlalu, fondasiku yang tentu tersemat buatmu entah tinggal tak terhirau.
Nurani memaksa tuk berhenti mengejar atap yang kau bawa.
Namun kau datang menawarkan atap disaat aku berhenti berlari.
Kau dan aku sekarang rumah.
Rumah kosong yang menunggu untuk diisi.

Maret 2016,
Tak terasa rumah kita penuh sesak
Namun kukuh nyaman
Kadang ku datang bawakan sampah.
Kau marah namun tak apa.
Kau tinggal menelurkan debu.
Aku marah namun tak apa.
Tapi sayang, tak sekalipun karsa ku membuka pintu.

Agustus 2016,
Rumah semakin penuh..
Sesekali kau mengaduh.
Seringkali ku berang.
Dalam diamku, kau selalu coba raih gagang pintu..